Happy growing up!

First, happy new year everybody. May this year bring fulfillment and inner strength to all!

It has been a while since I last hopped in and not that life was not interesting to blog about :-) But too many thoughts always confuse the main idea stream and the quality of it vanish in to thin air. In such circumstances it is better to let go than to try and tame the fellow.

Today I am thinking in a straightforward manner as tomorrow is a memorable day for me. My daughter is turning 18 months! Isn't that a serious thing! It was like a dream when she was born in July 2009 and I moving to US with her last year January to live with my husband. So many changes and upgrades and downgrades and 18 months have passed. First 6 months were the most hectic as I never dreamed of what was coming. I had to practise patience to keep myself calm and think through things. But after few months the practise and guessing whats next on line just gave me the strength to move on. And her smile... Her smile kept me going. I struggled hard with life at that time. I had a satisfying job and a flourishing career line which I was happily proceeding. But even though I returned to work, only thing I wanted to do was to come back to her. She was so amazing and growing fast, I didn't want to miss a single thing.

I made up my mind. I gave up my life for she was more important and valuable to me. I wanted her to know that I'm there for her always when she need me. I still want her to know that. I want her to be brave and have courage to go forward in her life. But I want to be there just to see that she's safe. This is my life now. My daughter, I'm standing beside you to give you the hand when you need one. And most of all, I'm here to love you and nourish you and make sure you are never hurt. I will always do my best to give you strength in your life. Happy growing up my little baby and I love you...